Moody Blues

Man!! I don't know what is with me, but I am sooooo depressed. Not that I'm not feeling blessed or loved, but I just want to curl up and cry all day!! Why??? What in the world do I have to cry about??? NOTHING!!!!

My life is soooooo amazing. Maybe I'm just feeling like it can't get any better so if anything it's all gonna fall apart? Jeez, maybe I'm just tired, as I was up with Emma last night again. Can't sleep anyway, so I may as well be up. Maybe it's just hormones, being that it doesn't make any sense.

Any of you out there who are now planning on calling to make me feel better, please don't!!! You know the old '"If someone is nice to me, I can't keep it together'- feeling?

That's me today.

One 'How are you REALLY doing?" and I'm toast!!!

Anyway, the kids have decided to do science fair projects this year, so I have to go with them to a meeting about that this afternoon. I babysit a little boy for the afternoon too, and other than that, I can sit around and do nothing. (Although perhaps I'd do better to occupy myself?).

I've been really pumped about the new babe lately. Maybe because he/she never stops moving!!! Seriously. Sometimes I love it so much and am so amazed, and other times it gets a little annoying. (Like when it does the bladder dance). For those of you who have not experienced the bladder dance, it's when the baby 'dances' on your bladder, making you feel like you had better RUN to the bathroom cause you gotta go so bad. Then you get there, and it was just a false alarm. How rude!!!

But really, the newborn thing is so wonderful, they are so soft, and warm, and they smell so gooooood.... (most of the time). Haha. I love it when you hold up the baby under the arms in front of you, and the crunch into a little ball with their bum out behind them. I call it baby stretches. Sooooooo cute!! I also love it when you lay them down and pull a little curled up leg out straight, and as soon as you let go, it bounces back in again!!

I'm rambling, I know. Good thing I'm already preggo, or I'd be wanting another one starting today!! Only three more months to go. I think it'll go fast. I can't believe how big the others are getting. Emma has these huge long legs, my dad would say they go all the way up to her armpits they're so long. Soooo tall and beautiful.

Gabe's teacher caught me yesterday and told me how much he loves science. (Like I didn't already know!!). She said he just has a 'thirst for learning', and 'he just dances, he's so excited!' That was good to hear, although he still wishes that he 'never had to go to school' or that 'school was never invented'. Haha.

Avery came home the other day with a huge 4 page form release for a spelling bee. She loves spelling as it comes easily to her. So I signed her up. Well, last night she brings a list of the words. Here are a sampling and yes, they are ALL this hard...

altruism, expertise, gorgeous, glasnost, salmonella, omnivorous, impetuous, ingenious,hacienda, vigilante.... etc. Holy Crap!!! The kid is in grade two for pete sake!! There are hundreds of words in the lists, who knows what they will ask her.... She was completely intimidated. But, she is very smart, and I think she should try. Not that we are making her. We've encouraged her, and told her that most kids have to study the regular spelling at school, where she doesn't. So it might be good for her to have a challenge. We also told her that even if she didn't get a single word right, we are so proud of her anyway. What else should we say? It's even trickier, because you have to be able to spell the words without writing them down, which is a whole new ball game! I was thinking I might rent a spelling bee movie, (Akeelah and the Bee, Spellbound, Bee Season, recommendations, anyone?). I'm thinking at least then she'd have an idea what they are expected to do. I tell ya, it's hard to encourage your child toward something that may end in heartbreak!! I guess a good parent could make it a wonderful lesson and experience in joy, but I am totally scared!!!!!

Anyway, I should go, look in my sweet Emma, who is watching a movie, still in her jammies. God bless you all, have a great one. And oh yeah, I'm fine. *smile*

P.S. I love this song, so don't be scared that I've been crying all day!! haha.