Musings

This post may be a little heavy, but it is made of things that have been lingering in my heart for the last while. We heard at church on Sunday about a family that just miscarried at 34 weeks. That is exactly how far along in my pregnancy I am. How scary and awful and unfair. I have felt so blessed by this pregnancy and this new life within, it is scary to know that it is still not for sure. Things happen, I know, and I continue to pray also for each friend I have that is expecting right now along with me.


When we decided to try again for baby #4, I was very scared. We had lost the last baby, and I'd decided not to go through that ever again. I joined a message board for people trying to concieve after miscarriage. These women were so amazing. Most of them had miscarried more than once, and they continued to try for new life. I don't know how they did it.


At one point a new woman posted, who had very recently miscarried. She posted that she was a Christian but had lost her faith when she lost her baby. After all, who could trust in a god that would just let her child die? I think anyone has similar thoughts, and one of the replys to the post was so insightful, I've saved it for months now.


It applies to more than just miscarriage, and although is just one woman's opionion, I really believe it could help so many of us that wonder the same thing. It's lengthy, but worth it. God Bless, All.

Love, Char


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I have been a believer for years and studied the bible, but there are still so many things I don't understand. I have come to the realization that it is okay to not understand everything, because our minds are only human and it is hard for us to see the whole picture, but that overall God cares about us because we are his children. Here is the best I can make sense of it:

God is good and doesn't want bad things to happen to us.

Evil is in the world and is constantly battling against good and therefore the world will always be imperfect and sad. People will die, there will be wars, natural disasters, disease, miscarriages, etc.

God does not protect us from every evil thing in the world. Just because someone prays and trusts in God does not mean that they will have less bad things happen to them than someone who doesn't pray or believe on God. The difference is that someone who talks to god about their hurts and trials can receive healing and strength from him. He can also transform us into better people than we ever thought we were capable of becoming.

Also if we study the bible and try our best to live in the way it directs us to live, our lives will be better and more fulfilling even in times of trouble. No where in the bible does god say that he won't let anything bad happen to us. However, he does promise time and time again that he will be there to help bear our burdens when we turn to him in prayer and thanksgiving.

God loves us because we are all his children, and he does not want bad things to happen to us. He doesn't punish us by making bad things happen. For example, when someone murders someone else, it is not because God wanted it to happen. It is because that person used their free will to hurt another person.

Things that go wrong with our bodies (like illness, miscarriage) are because our bodies are in an imperfect world and we are not made perfect and invincible. I do think that God can bring us physical healing, but He does not always do it.

Sometimes the healing He brings when we pray for healing is spiritual or emotional healing, but not physical. It is still healing, though, and it is worth praying for in any form because he does listen to our pryaers.

One last thing. It is okay to tell God how you are feeling right now. He can handle it if you are mad at Him or disappointed in Him. Just please continue to talk to Him and stay in a relationship with him, even if that relationship is stormy sometimes. He wants you to truly know him and be completely honest with him and with yourself abou the things you are going through. I am so sorry for your loss and I wish you the best.